here I am, now what?

The Lord is merciful and compassionate,
slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.

This week as I read through some of the En Gedi lectionary passages, the theme of complaining to God emerged. I have complained to God about many things - much like the Israelites, I'm wondering why can't I just stay where I am, make friends, enjoy family. Why couldn't I at least move to somewhere near a large body of water? Now, I am not moving on from slavery as they were, but I do sometimes wonder why not just stay where I at least know my way around, it's familiar...?

I am glad that God is merciful and compassionate. I know, I am relying on His guidance. I am trusting that He is concerned with my journey and how I feel about it. That may not change the steps I am to take but I can look for Him to, as He did with the Israelites, provide what I need for the life He is leading me in. When I don't recognize His provision, when I don't know what to do next and when I'm crying for my own way, I'm glad He is slow to anger and filled with unfailing love.