living the adventure...unfettering dreams...wrestling with realities...

Learn to dance in the rain

2011-11-20T07:42:00.000-08:00

"Life's not about waiting for the storms to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain." ~ Vivian Greene

I quote I saw yesterday. It's a good mind set. Given the past 5 months of trial and uncertainty, it is clear that rain doesn't go away on our wishing. It is not something we control. There is so much going on in the midst of a rainy day that can be missed focusing on what can be done once it stops.

It's raining today. We have outdoor family pictures scheduled for today. So, we will take our umbrellas.

when the job description fits

2011-11-13T11:13:00.000-08:00

Recently I heard an available positions described like this, "If you are someone who always looks at the way things are done and think you can do better....this is the perfect job for you". I laughed and looked around the room for those people who may own that trait. Back seat drivers. Arm chair quarterbacks. Bleacher umpires.

A couple weeks later the job is mine. Enough said about that?
I have made it no secret that my dream job is that of consultant. Consultant General. I would consult on anything because I am certain that I am qualified. Just don't ask me to find one thing to do and do it well.

I am thinking about forming a club - or would it be a support group?

Learning styles

2011-09-04T19:09:00.000-07:00

People learn in different ways. I am familiar with three of the common learning styles: visual, auditory and kinesthetic. I also have been told that a good teacher should, for the sake of the various students, make an effort to include several if those styles in one lesson.
Today, I would like my lesson in a little more focused fashion. I have had quite enough of the learning by doing.

This is what the Lord says--
   your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
"I am the Lord your God,
   who teaches you what is good for you
   and leads you along the paths you should follow.
- Isaiah 48:17

Today, I would like just to be told what to do. Sounds refreshing.

what to do in a spin out of control...Learning to Appreciate the Journey - Beliefnet.com

2011-08-23T07:18:00.000-07:00

I feel very out of control today and I was in need of inspiration. For some reason I counted, it has been 48 days of what I was optimistically calling a "sabbatical". I did recently learn that this won't be the unpaid sabbatical, that's a relief - a victory. It has been a long time for me not to have anything except for survival to work toward. You would think I would be more prepared for an upcoming reentry. It won't really matter if I am ready or not. I am anxious to know what it is I will be doing. So, I will read something, watch something, cut and color my hair, clean my house, and maybe new glasses - some things that I can control.

Learning to Appreciate the Journey - Beliefnet.com

wanted: a ukulele

2011-08-07T19:17:00.000-07:00

In times of trial, one always must - if for nothing but for coping - look for the lesson, or purpose, right? I am now in week 3 of seeking wisdom, resources, patience... in a circumstance that I would not be in if it not for another person's free will to exercise evil intentions. I have options to explore, challenges to face and much time to contemplate.

Today is Sunday. I was treated to a word from my God through scripture and a very meaningful time of worship with music. I left with the need to learn a new song, or to relearn how to sing an old song.

Psalm 27
¹ The Lord is my light and my salvation—
      so why should I be afraid?
   The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
      so why should I tremble?
² When evil people come to devour me,
      when my enemies and foes attack me,
      they will stumble and fall.
³ Though a mighty army surrounds me,
      my heart will not be afraid.
   Even if I am attacked,
      I will remain confident.

⁴ The one thing I ask of the Lord—
      the thing I seek most—
   is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
      delighting in the Lord’s perfections
      and meditating in his Temple.
⁵ For he will conceal me there when troubles come;
      he will hide me in his sanctuary.
      He will place me out of reach on a high rock.

I have, since our difficulties began, been only a little bit joking about my fear of our eventual dwelling place being that of a tent - and the unfortunate reality that a couple years ago our neighbor boy broke one of our tent poles - and a faulty tent at that. In the NIV version, verse 5 reads, "he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent". I like that.

⁶ Then I will hold my head high
      above my enemies who surround me.
   At his sanctuary I will offer sacrifices with shouts of joy,
      singing and praising the Lord with music.

I was just at World Music yesterday saying that maybe I would learn to play the ukulele... now may be a good time for that.

⁷ Hear me as I pray, O Lord.
      Be merciful and answer me!
⁸ My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
      And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
⁹ Do not turn your back on me.
      Do not reject your servant in anger.
      You have always been my helper.
   Don’t leave me now; don’t abandon me,
      O God of my salvation!
¹⁰ Even if my father and mother abandon me,
      the Lord will hold me close.
¹¹ Teach me how to live, O Lord.
      Lead me along the right path,
      for my enemies are waiting for me.
¹² Do not let me fall into their hands.
      For they accuse me of things I’ve never done.

with every breath they threaten me with (lateral) violence.

¹³ Yet I am confident I will see the Lord’s goodness
      while I am here in the land of the living.
¹⁴ Wait patiently for the Lord.
      Be brave and courageous.
      Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.

Sing, sing a new song! ....I need a ukulele.

having fun isn't hard...

2011-07-28T10:05:00.000-07:00

You know that feeling that you get when you come out of a fantastic film experience - you were so engaged, you dismissed the reality of the world outside the theater? When you lose all track of time? When you have to reorient in a short period of reentry as you move through the doors of the theater... Imagine that for a couple of weeks... pretending I am on sabbatical.

It is a good thing for library cards. Besides the coping with a reality that still feels very surreal, I have lately (the past two weeks) had much need for distraction and much time for applying myself to reading for that purpose. With last two books written from a perspective that is unfamiliar to me, one of a child with CP (btw: a must read for any middle school student, I think) and another from the perspective of a dog, I began to sense a need for a little reorientation.

So, I select another book from my list of reading that goes back a couple of years...and it is a story of a journey of isolation and desperate wandering.

I think I'll take a break, submit a couple more applications, send a couple emails, go for a swim and then watch season 7 of ER which I also picked up at the library. Later, more of a PBS documentary on the history of baseball.

Having fun isn't hard...when you have a library card!

nice girls don't change the world

2011-07-22T06:18:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite times with a book was that time I spent with a little book called "Nice Girlds Don't Change the World" by Lynne Hybels. The book is Lynne's story, along with a challenge to the rest of us - to live dangerously. Recently, I picked this book up again and gave it another read.

I resonated with the book the first time I read it, enough to start this site. It was a theme for myself and group of ladies who are investing their lives in church planting. So, fear and fatigue were common sitings. I am once again head on in the face of fear. A great thing about the Kingdom of God, even though I have never met Lynne, even though the book is a couple years old - the messages of courage and faith remain. I can trust in the love and wisdom of God. So, I'm off to Starbucks now...with Lynne and my bible. Ready to face another day....

"a good woman is that she sings her song even if she's terrified. Whatever she's called to do, she does it, even if she's so scared her voice breaks, her hand shakes, and her stomach aches. She doesn't let fear stop her."

Google Calendar

2011-07-20T05:10:00.000-07:00

juli.reynolds@gmail.com, you have no events scheduled today Wed Jul 20, 2011

- Kinda tired of seeing this in my inbox every day. Every day since July 14, this is what I see. I think I will start making things up.

juli.reynolds@gmail.com, today is the first day of a brand new adventure. You have people to see, places to go and things to do. It is time to get busy doing all of the things that you cannot do if you are working full time.

Yep, every day I am going to add something - even if I have to make it up. This may be fun. Here goes...

i think i like this guy...

2011-07-13T06:27:00.000-07:00

...or maybe just something that will pass, again.

"Silence equals consent."

Nursing is rich with history of violence within its own ranks by nursing administrators who are rewarded for maintaining a very dangerous and highly unethical status quo that ultimately leads to patient harm and death--is the willful endangerment of human life not sociopathic in nature?

Failure to acknowledge and confront this history factors significantly in the inability of nurses to overcome oppressed group thinking and behavior. As horrible as it is for us to acknowledge that those among our ranks have used violence to uphold dangerous systems of care, we harm our patients, our families, our communities, and ourselves by desperately clinging to the ignorance. We violate everything that we purportedly value as a profession. We violate the highest level of trust bestowed upon nurses by the public we serve.

Time to do something different.

The traditional approaches of fighting the healthcare industry and marginalized nurse leaders who support it have failed to produce the major shift in consciousness of staff nurses AND elected officials that is necessary to take control of our own profession. It will never be in a profit-focused industry's best interest to facilitate anything likely to unite any significant percentage of nurses within an organization with common goals. As an oppressed group, only staff nurses can fix our own damaged, disempowered, and divided profession.

Nurses are in process of making the shift from the ineffective, passive-aggressive backbiting and complaining about our plight to the empowered and effective professionals we must be. Because we have human lives in our hands, because anything less than empowered, valued, respected, and protected practice is dangerous for patients, because we love what we do but we cannot tolerate the way we have must do it, we are taking control of our profession.

It can be expected that the industry will desperately engage in violence to quell the revolt. It is easier for them to knock us off, one rogue at a time.

Enter the world wide web.

Enter Generation X.

Enter Massachusetts Nurses Association

Enter California Nurses Association

The public likes and trusts nurses.

The public votes for elected officials.

The public will support a staff nurse identified and supported healthcare agenda.

To my colleagues in direct patient care and the public who trusts us and supports our efforts.

Thank you.

In Solidarity,

Steven S. Lee, RN

loosening our grip

2011-07-09T04:44:00.000-07:00

I heard myself tell Spencer that we ought not hold too tightly to things. As the words hit the sound waves, they seemed to have life that was beyond just something I say to divert whatever the situation was that was creating disappointment over some real or perceived loss that my 10 year old was experiencing. This moment brought with it a sense of confidence and a surreal sort of "uh-oh" with it.

Holding loosely...to the things we just take for granted, to whatever the particular life circumstances that we currently enjoy. These things change in a moment and sometimes there is nothing we can do about it. It is in these moments that we find out what it is we value, who we are.

"A waiting person is a patient person. The word patience means the willingness to stay where we are and live the situation out to the full in the belief that something hidden there will manifest itself to us." — Henri J.M. Nouwen

"When suddenly you seem to lose all you thought you had gained, do not despair. You must expect setbacks and regressions. Don't say to yourself "All is lost. I have to start all over again." This is not true. What you have gained you have gained....When you return to the the road, you return to the place where you left it, not to where you started." — Henri J.M. Nouwen (The Inner Voice of Love)

"Dear God,

I am so afraid to open my clenched fists!

Who will I be when I have nothing left to hold on to?

Who will I be when I stand before you with empty hands?

Please help me to gradually open my hands

and to discover that I am not what I own,

but what you want to give me.

And what you want to give me is love,

unconditional, everlasting love.

Amen."

— Henri J.M. Nouwen (The Only Necessary Thing: Living a Prayerful Life)

foolish or courageous?

2011-07-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

Recently I did something that I felt like I just had to do to put to rest some contemplation. I have not shared with anyone the choice I made. I must admit that keeping it to myself has been a very funny thing to me. I have even laughed out loud over it a couple times. Regardless of what happens with that, it led me to consider (more contemplation to replace that which I put to rest), "What is the difference between foolish and courageous?"

One of the comments I received from my FB poll separated the two by risk vs foreseeable consequences. Courageous acts lead people toward behavior that is not deterred by pain or danger. If the danger is in physical, emotional or social risk - no matter. I am an advocate for bravery. I have sat across the table from many who are able to articulate their passion beautifully and project their dreams with detail. The question that lingers is always the same, "then, why not?" The answer is also almost always the same... fear. (well, and I suppose to be fair, funds is a very close second!)

Fear.

What if I fail? What if "they" think I am foolish? What if it isn't really a good idea? What if I succeed and don't know where to go from there?

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.-Eleanor Roosevelt

Fear is good. Fear brings up all the risk involved. Fear is good for stopping us from doing something that will harm us or others - causing us to count the cost is not a bad thing. Fear can bring us to the place where we modify our plans to avoid unnecessary risk. Is fear ever a good reason not to try? Depends on how it all unpacks when we do face it, I suppose. However, anything worth doing usually involves risk of and eventually some pain.

…You must do the thing you think you cannot do.-Eleanor Roosevelt

In my fB conversation, foolishness vs courageous revealed that a world view, our value system plays an important role in what is labeled foolishness and what is labeled courageous. One of my wise friends stated simply that is usually after the fact that the call is made. I think I agree with that. This is what makes life the adventure that it is.

Gene and I have made choices over the past few years that were base on passion and world view / value system. I suppose now, in light of a couple "failures", what we have done could seem foolish. We chose to risk financial stability and pursue a dream. Six years later, we are still in pursuit of something that seems less clear all of the time. The danger that was feared is right here with us. Would we do anything different, probably not. Recently the "security" we gave up, became not so secure and it is very possible we would be in the same place now anyway, but having the wondering of what could have been had we tried. I also think that when we act in the face of all the uncertainties, it encourages others to do the same.

I won't lie, I hope that my choices, the risks I take either go unnoticed or work out to be very good things. If not, at least I won't wonder "what if...". I hope that we will catch a break one of these days. I pray frequently desperate prayers of hoping in that direction. When that happens, all of our foolishness will be labeled courage and inspiration. In the mean time...courageous just appears foolish to others - and visa versa. We listen to our fear, assess the situation - balance these matters with our own capabilities and act accordingly.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.-Ambrose Redmoon

happy mother's day!

2011-05-08T16:59:00.000-07:00


trying the patio garden again...sticking with tomatoes and basil. i almost added a cucumber plant, resisted the temptation. i have yet to get the patio garden right... (the small basil plant in the big pot will be replaced by a tomato plant soon - making a swap with a friend)...so excited!


Spencer's flower garden :-) again, keeping it simple

"You have heard, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.'...

2011-05-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

Today I woke to images that were comparible to those you see after a super bowl or world series - or when the USA wins a major Olympic event. As I watched the celebration, that "something is not right" feeling set in. The celebration we were watching was that of the US winning a "dual to the death". We had broken in on one of our enemies and taken his life. We killed an enemy. He killed, so we killed him.

I looked to see what my facebook friends are saying. Some are celebrating and some are asking good questions. Some, are not celebrating. I don't feel much like celebrating.

...I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, in that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike.

1 Samuel 24:17 "You are more righteous than I," he said. "You have treated me well, but I have treated you badly.
Proverbs 19:11 A man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense.
Proverbs 25:21 If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink.
Luke 6:27-28 "But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you,bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.
Luke 23:34 Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." And they divided up his clothes by casting lots.
John 13:34 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
Acts 7:60 Then he fell on his knees and cried out, "Lord, do not hold this sin against them." When he had said this, he fell asleep.
Romans 12:14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse.
Romans 12:20 On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
1 Thessalonians 5:15 Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always try to be kind to each other and to everyone else.

Not easy, it takes courage to forgive. I don't think anyone is better off today than they were yesterday because a man is dead.

play ball!

2011-04-09T12:53:00.000-07:00

The Brewers down 7-1 in the 3rd inning, the Cardinals not cutting them any slack. Sam steps to the plate with bases loaded. Coach White and Sam exchange a look, a smile. Everyone waiting for a big play to turn this game around. With a big smile on his face, as if he knows what is about to happen. As if he has planned it just this way. First pitch, CRACK! He drives in over the right field fence, Grand Slam! Brewers 5, Cardinals 7.

The Brewers rally to win it 10-7. Two strong teams, a great game.

Report Card Rewards...

2011-03-30T12:40:00.000-07:00

Recently I posted a poll on Facebook, asking my friends to weigh in on the issue of paying children for grades earned in school, with payday being report card day. I thoroughly enjoyed the conversation that followed. Many of my very insightful friends, some teachers and all wonderful parents, contributed.

Up to this point, we have taught our children that the grades they receive are their reward. Being on a "principal's list" or "honor roll" - all those are set up to reward their work. We have attempted to instill that the opportunity to learn is reward enough. "I am not Johnnie's parent", "That is between him and his parents" are some of the responses that became familiar to our report card day conversations. The focus seemed to always land back on the question of monetary reward. In light of recent motivational challenges, I began to question. I began to read articles and do some research on the topic.

Intrinsic motivation, one of our goals in raising the boys is to be self motivated in accomplishing all that goes into the mission they are called to. Gene and I have set out to leverage their God given gifts that equip them to honor God, their Creator in the way they live their lives. Doing the work of learning included, they may have to do what they do for very little earthly reward. We ought not live our lives for "what is in it for us". Along this path, many friends who shared their views felt that a community - a family - celebration of a good report card was called for - monetary reward not being necessary, possibly out of line with held values. I do agree.

However, if we view going to school as their "job" rather than "vocation", this would not confuse the issue of also providing monetary compensation. This could prepare them for the compensation-for-work-done system of the work place. That would not take away from the intrinsic motivation - it's more of a bonus. All the while providing a little extra incentive for doing their homework - not bad.

Entitlement was brought up by another parent. This could be one of those unintended consequences to be aware of, true. A red flag: "Johnnie gets..."or "Everyone else is..." I heard a couple stories of kids deciding that they don't need the money and therefore, working for grades becomes unnecessary as well. We probably all agree that we must be careful not to give the impression that they should be only be required to do what is rewarded to their satisfaction (we have all worked along side those people, right).

Research shows that monetary rewards for grades is minimally effective. At times it is only temporarily effective. As was often cited in our FB conversation - the motivational factors varies from one individual to another. What works for one child, may not have any impact on another. This may be the case in our household - fairness between siblings being a whole other conversation. My friend from Des Moines points us back to being in line with our family values, good word.

The point that swayed me in the direction we are taking now is the one made by several who differentiated between the getting good grades because they turn their assignments in and grades as a true refection on what they learn. It was actually one of the teachers that contributed to this line of thought. So, when my kids grades are a true reflection on what they are learning, and the effort required in the process, we will need to reevaluate. For now, while my kids grades are more of a refection on their organizational skills and their ability to remain focused for a certain period of time, I may need to provide another little incentive. It neutralized the "law of unintended consequences", at least for now.

A perfect balance in this was suggested by one of the wisest people I know. Parents celebrate and teach the kids to value their work, put in the effort, do their best, love to learn no matter what the external rewards and Grandparents provide the monetary reward. Love that!

I very much enjoyed hearing the creativity that goes into parenting - those who built in a cost for below average grades. One of my Nashville friends suggested "real" pizza...where in Nashville, TN do you get "real pizza"?! I liked the trip to Des Moines, a bit more costly than than any reward I was considering - but ...a visit with a wonderful forever friend, priceless!

We finally decided. (Truth is, Gene actually decided rather quickly -it was a bit more of a process for me as you can see.) Because both boys will easily get all A's if they simply hand in their homework, we decided to add incentive. They are learning that with reward comes responsibility - they will also be accepting financial responsibility beyond "Mom, can I have..." "Dad, can we...?" They will now have earned money for those expenses. This, they actually seemed to like. (Maybe because "no" is too often the response to those questions?) This term they are being rewarded with a small amount of money (adds up) for A's and B's. Next term the reward is a year end party with friends, and extra money to spend on that party for A's and B's. They both wrote their own goals for each class and we opened a savings account. Now, we'll see...

My reward for all the effort put into this assignment - a morning at the Pfunky Griddle with my friend.

We each have certain responsibilities that must be carried out if the family is to work together, children included. Each family member receives benefits that come from working together and benefits from simply being a member of the family (such as an allowance).

By teaching that each family works and lives together for mutual growth and benefit, and putting allowances in that light, parents and children alike can establish the right attitudes and principles. The key is to give children their allowances and require them to do their household chores without tying the two together like a work-for-hire agreement.

We have responsibilities...we also receive many blessings simply for being His children. Giving children an allowance, Crown Financial Ministries

Bellevue Middle School Band Trip: Disney.

2011-03-19T16:56:00.000-07:00

the band at Epcot just after the Disney workshops:

crazy fun at Disney after all performances completed:

last day at Universal - roller coasters and water rides!

and for some chaparone free time:

Madison, Wisconsin

2011-02-20T13:28:00.000-08:00

thinking of my friends as they endure another day of winter ... another day of peaceful demonstration. may you find a solution that is an acceptable compromise.

SATURDAY'S CAPITOL SQUARE DEMONSTRATIONS

Law Enforcement Praises Protesters' Conduct

On behalf of all the law enforcement agencies that helped keep the peace on the Capitol Square Saturday, a very sincere thank you to all of those who showed up to exercise their First Amendment rights. You conducted yourselves with great decorum and civility, and if the eyes of the nation were upon Wisconsin, then you have shown how democracy can flourish even amongst those who passionately disagree. As of 5:00 p.m., no major incidents had been reported. There have been no arrests. However, discourse and discussion was - at times - loud and heated. That was to be expected. As previously indicated, the goal of law enforcement has been to provide a safe environment for democracy to take place. That goal has been realized for yet another day.

Translating the Five Love Language into the workplace.

2011-01-31T09:52:00.000-08:00

DVD Promotional Video

“To receive recognition for one’s achievements is among the most fundamental of human needs”
Sirota, Mischkind, & Meltzer, The Enthusiastic Employee (2005), p. 223.

what i want to do is not always what i do

2011-01-30T06:04:00.000-08:00

Calvin and Hobbes Comic Strip, by Bill Watterson retreieved from GoComics.com

Yesterday, we stopped in at the Verizon store to investigate changing our wireless plan and possibly upgrading my phone. One day I would very much like an iPhone. When the iPhone first became a reality, I imagined myself living a life where I actually needed one. People to contact, business to organize, networking... The reality today: it would be fun and I want one. So the Hobbes in me speaks and we add a free phone and $10 for a family plan and leave the Verizon store.

I can relate to so much of Calvin. I imagine running a marathon. I watch world class athletes in competition and tell myself that there is no better challenge, thrill than disciplining one's self past where you think you can. I can do that! I dream about learning another language, packing up the family and traveling the world. I think that hiking / backpacking and camping would be a fantastic vacation...I could go on with my ambitious self talk but eventually it gets a tad bit discouraging.

So, Hobbes, next year when I am eligible, I will get the upgrade. Then, I will run a marathon! ...just before we sell everything and take our trip around the world!

a great way to make a come back...

2011-01-25T09:30:00.000-08:00

A 16 ounce cup of Starbucks Grande Caffe Americano contains 225 milligrams of caffeine and only 10 calories! Add a shot of skim milk and I get my calcium too.

For anyone considering giving it a shot, an Americano is essentially espresso coffee plus water. In the Grande size, Starbucks will make this a triple shot espresso!!!

sacrifice your money for a specific purpose...how about a $5 ticket to church

2011-01-23T06:23:00.000-08:00

So, this morning I got up to first take the dog out and then get some reading done before everyone gets up. I am thinking about what direction to to take in the way of intentional discipleship - should we watch a Nooma video, read...

I decided to check out a web site that I was curious about...a book that is probably trending now in Christian circles, calling people to deeper faith. I like the premise of the book. It calls us away from the "American Dream", to Jesus. I did not read the book, I admit. I had taken to heart the challenge the author puts forth. I will most likely stick with what I have started:

1. Reading through the Bible - chronologically - with Sam. We are behind a couple days right now, we will catch up.
2. Praying for the world, to love what Jesus loves. Today in Pictures is a fantastic guide for that adventure in prayer.

On this web site is an invitation to a house church. Intense. No time constraint study of the Bible. Not for the faint of heart. Prayer for the world. Prayer for the persecuted church. The description is that of taking our gathering as seriously as those who are meeting illegally and in fear of persecution must. It was touching a part of me that has given up on the organization of "church". The description was pulling me in...giving me hope. And then...

Ticket Information

Tickets for ... will go on sale, Monday, February 7, at 9 a.m. (CST) on this page. There will be a registration button on this page that will take you to our ticketing site.

* Tickets will be $5 and include your study guide for the evening.
* Tickets are non-refundable.
* Tickets are only available through our web site.

Live Simulcast...

I looked to see if the ticket information was going to a cause and could not find anything. I found travel information. They are taking donations for the cause.

Selling tickets to a radical church gathering...can anyone explain it to me?

I know... Covering the cost of materials, paying the pastors, operating the facility... In this case, it just seems counter to the cause. I guess, it's only $5 and internet access that is required. This is possibly an opportunity to live up to one of the challenges of the movement: "to sacrifice your money for a specific purpose".

2010-12-20T05:44:00.000-08:00

One of the things that I do enjoy about living in the South is not having to wear the winter coat-hat-gloves-scarf-boots every day - for months. We have had very cold weather, ice and some snow since we have lived in Nashville. These, I thought I had moved away from.

Today, it's all the way it should be. I am not rejoicing in the suffering of my friends in "the North", many of them enjoy the cold. I am simply glad to see that our weather forecast here, is not the same as the forecast there.

Nashville:

Moline, IL:

Madison, WI:

Merry Christmas Everyone.

2010-12-20T05:37:00.000-08:00

Where is everyone going....

2010-11-04T05:25:00.000-07:00

The word university is derived from the Latin universitas magistrorum et scholarium, roughly meaning "community of teachers and scholars." (wikipedia, a source that my professors do not endorse). I find places that are purposed around learning inspirational. People, all busy learning, teaching, writing, creating... Developing their God given talents - a truly beautiful experience. After a bus ride and a stop for my double shot americano, I found myself walking across the campus of Vanderbilt University. I began to wake to the amazing people I am surrounded by. I wonder where they are all going, if they are enjoying the journey they are on. I am thankful that I am among them today even though I, for one, have no idea where I am really heading.

Social Media Revolution

2010-10-31T07:13:00.000-07:00

I knew that I needed and iphone and a kindle...

please use the other door

2010-05-23T06:42:00.000-07:00

We have all done it, walk up to what you think is the front door, give it a tug met by resistance and then notice the sign, PLEASE USE OTHER DOOR. Depending on what you went through getting to that door, the feelings vary. No big deal, just reach over and open the other door, right? Unless you are already feeling a sense of frustration over the effort and time it took to find this door and the other door is not in sight. In that case, this experience can be very discouraging. That said, if you want in, you have to find the open door.

I am energized by any opportunity to be at the ball field. All last year I thought that is was just that I love baseball. I love watching my boys play a sport that I began to enjoy so much when I was their ages. This week I got to sit in the stands of the football field and enjoyed that just as much. This led me to another realization, besides being passionate about anything that my boys find fulfilling, I really enjoy feeling like I'm part of a community. This is a place that I am willing to keep searching for an open door to.

It has been almost two years since we moved to Nashville. I am now entering into that place between being a newcomer and not. This is the space where those who have been in a place long enough, begin knowing what is going on, how things work and how to be involved. It is the beginning of knowing what you don't know.

It is often in this place where patterns begin to emerge. You begin seeing the same faces, the same names - the same people in the same places repeatedly and sense "these people may be able to help me". Of course, these same people may also have everything under control and direct you elsewhere. In that case, you have to try another "door". (In my case,I even met some people who were willing to tell me what a "northerner" is. If you meet enough of these people, you can piece together a profile that will be helpful to you when you do finally enter through the open door!)

This is where I stand, staring at the other door...

...at least I can see the entrance, right?

Here are just a few of the tips I have received from my friends (some humor here of course, some adapted from various quotes that have been sent to me):

*Native Southerners do not share the same fascination for Northern accents as Yankees have for the harmonious and charming Southern accent.
*Everyday conversations with the natives will invariably throw you for a full year or so. Groceries are put in a 'sack', people 'carry' their friends to the store, directions consist of 'Up air a ways' or 'down yonder', and "Y'all" covers everybody. "Puny" means ill and "Bless your heart" is not always a blessing.
*Whatever you do, do not launch into an affected Southern drawl until you've earned the right (pronounce 'rat') to have one. Southern hospitality has its natural limits, and inadvertently mocking the natives is one of them.
*Coke is generic for any carbonated beverage. If you say you'd like a "coke", expect a pause awaiting the kind of "coke" you would like.
*Know what a "meat and 3" is.
*The battle cry of any Southerner anywhere is: 'We don't CARE how they do it up North!' Remember that rule to your dying day.
*Just because you can drive on snow and ice does not mean we can. Stay home the two days of the year it snows.
*If there is the prediction of the slightest chance of even the most minuscule accumulation of snow, your presence is required at the local grocery store. It does not matter if you need anything from the store, it is just something you're supposed to do.
*Remember: "Y'all" is singular. "All y'all" is plural. "All y'all's" is plural possessive.
*Get used to hearing, "You ain't from around here, are you?"

Nashville Tennessee Flood 2010

2010-05-08T18:28:00.000-07:00

Fun with Guns.

2010-03-19T15:24:00.001-07:00

I have unashamedly been called a "Northerner" numerous times since moving to Nashville over a year ago. As much as adjusting to the ethos of the South and the nonspecific blend found in Nashville, I have had to be a learner of what is meant by "Northerner". Just what is is that "they" are saying anyway?

While I don't yet have a full grasp on all that defines these matters of culture, there are some matters of life here that I am coming to grips with.

these are a few of my favorite...

2010-03-11T16:34:00.001-08:00

A day with Spencer. We call them Sabbath days. Spencer plans the day as we go. We look for God in the faces of people we see, in the joy we experience as we play and explore. This time we started out at Starbucks.

in pursuit of a good deal...

2010-01-17T08:38:00.000-08:00

a few weeks ago, i had a crash course in couponing from a couple of my friends who are passionately involved in this pursuit. i was drawn by amazing stories of free stuff and grocery receipts that boast of well stocked pantries and amazingly low out of pocket expense. today, i ventured out in the rain, secured my front row parking space and waited in line to purchase four sunday papers. two hours later, i have a stack of paper for the recycle bin, a stack of store flyers to be filed for resource and a large stack of coupons. i currently lack the funds to shop, buying me about one week to learn how to maximize my investment.

thus far my new couponing hobby has cost me $7 (that i could easily recoup in progresso soup alone, i might add). time for another "how to" session!

connected to Presence?

2009-09-01T07:15:00.000-07:00

:: annual september 1 reflection ::
am i living in truth based on Presence or truth based on information and past experience? my life should be an outflow of the Presence of Christ in my life, is it?

Have mercy on me, O God,
because of your unfailing love.
Because of your great compassion,
blot out the stain of my sins.
Wash me clean from my guilt.
Purify me from my sin.
For I recognize my rebellion;
it haunts me day and night.
Against you, and you alone, have I sinned;
I have done what is evil in your sight.
You will be proved right in what you say,
and your judgment against me is just.
For I was born a sinner—
yes, from the moment my mother conceived me.
But you desire honesty from the womb,
teaching me wisdom even there.

Purify me from my sins,and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Oh, give me back my joy again;
you have broken me—
now let me rejoice.
Don’t keep looking at my sins.
Remove the stain of my guilt.
Create in me a clean heart, O God.
Renew a loyal spirit within me.
Do not banish me from your presence,
and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and make me willing to obey you.
Then I will teach your ways to rebels,
and they will return to you.
Forgive me for shedding blood, O God who saves;
then I will joyfully sing of your forgiveness.
Unseal my lips, O Lord,
that my mouth may praise you.

You do not desire a sacrifice, or I would offer one.
You do not want a burnt offering.
The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.
You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.
Look with favor on Zion and help her;
rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.
Then you will be pleased with sacrifices offered in the right spirit—

Fire: Connect to Presence

::on fiding my dream job::

2009-06-30T13:56:00.000-07:00

I took one of those "find the perfect career test" today, this is what I got: two results based on who i am being right now and who i want to be. i got about 50 different career choices that could be a fit. helpful. it's all so clear now. it was however, a good diversion making me feel like i was getting closer to living the life i was created for. more productive than farm town maybe?

You would be very happy in a career that utilized your level-headedness, and allowed you to work mainly on your own. You want a career that allows you to be creative, without having to be involved with lots of people. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

* Artist
* Historian
* Banker
* Novelist
* University Professor
* Photographer
* Vet
* Paralegal
* Graphic Designer
* Online Content Developer
* Webmaster
* Producer
* Managing Director
* Nutritionist
* Advertising
* Nursing

You like working and being alone. You like to avoid attention at all costs. You tend to keep to yourself, and not interact much with the people around you. You enjoy spending time with a few a close friends. You like to listen to others, but don't like sharing much about yourself. You are very quiet and private.

This is not how I feel, only reveals my insecurities to me in the way I fearfully answer the survey questions. It may be perhaps the way I am perceived in my workplace, I'm not really sure. If I say that I like people and enjoy being in charge; if I say that I love being where the action is...will I actually have to then work in a job that requires me to step up? Will I have to stick my neck out again? Will I have to face the rejection and pain of leadership again?

You like to be deeply involved in one or two special projects. You like to be behind the scenes. You are very logical and fair. You feel you should be honest with others and protect their feelings.

You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.

You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don�t like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open.

So, that's the first outcome of the survey. I took it again.
This time I got a personality that is more of who I want to be. Travel agent? that may be fun.

You would most enjoy a career that allows you to meet new people. You would also be happiest in a career that allows you to be free and flexible, and allows you to be extremely creative. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

* Stockbroker
* Secretary
* Receptionist
* Director
* Recruitment Consultant
* Politician
* Marketing
* Human Resources Manager
* Religious Minister
* Teacher
* Lawyer
* Advertising
* Consultant
* Financial Adviser
* Financial Planner
* GP
* Physical Therapy
* Occupational Therapy
* Public Relations
* Estate Agent
* Travel Agent
* Restauranteur
* Hotel Manager
* Events Organiser

You are a great leader. You genuinely enjoy being around other people. Your relationships with others are very important to you. You love talking and meeting new people. You are very enthusiastic about work and about all that you do and have in your life. You love being the focus of attention. You enjoy a fast pace. You are very socially oriented. Therefore, you are much happier being with others than you are alone. You crave interaction with others.

You are very spontaneous and often act before you think. You are always quick to answer when you are asked a question, even if you aren't sure of the answer. It is easier for you to improvise as you go along. You enjoy thinking out loud, and are most creative when brainstorming with friends or colleagues. You enjoy being involved in many activities.

You are very easy to read, and often wear your heart on your sleeve. You are never afraid to tell people what you think. You are very empathetic and genuine. You can sometimes be seen as over-emotional or too involved by others. But that is only because you tend to get so involved in the things you do that they become personal. You want to be adored, loved and appreciated. You like to please others and to make sure people are happy.

You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.

You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don't like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open.

take the quiz: iVillage

Exile Island

2009-05-31T09:07:00.000-07:00

For years I have been a student of the gifts given to us by God to fulfill our mission in reconciliation. Working together in different ways towards a common aim, Paul compared us to a human body. It consists of many parts but each part is ordered to the well-being of the whole. That should be a picture of the Christian community. We are all equal in dignity - Jew or Greek, slave or citizen, man or woman, cleric or lay - but different in calling and manner of service.

On this feast of Pentecost, as we celebrate the formation and the mission of the whole Christian community, I also need to reflect on the particular role that God has for me, to reflect on the particular contribution that I can make to the corporate mission of the Church (and of the particular group with which I am involved, whatever that is to look like).

Missionaries on a foreign mission field find themselves pioneering new works, forging new paths, carrying on a work in what must feel at times like isolation. One night while we were watching Survivor, I began thinking how similar the experience on Exile Island is to the experience I am having with the Christian community. The community is still there, back at camp doing the things you do back at camp. I am still part of the community, just not in proximity. There are times I feel like I live in some kind of exile. That is not new, I am not the first or only Christ follower who has experienced this. Some who have gone before us have been literally exiled. It is how we use this time, right?

Today, because of what a friend of mine is going through being separated from her family at a time when she most needs to be with them, I am again considering the power of proximity, or the lack of. My friend is at work right now, surrounded by people who have no idea what she is going through. She is a child of God saying goodbye to a loved one. I prayed that she would know the "Peace be with you" that transcends proximity and as I prayed, I knew that it was possible. A mystery to be sure.

Ultimately the mission of the Church is to bring people to God. It is not primarily to make converts to Christianity or to build up the Church but to work with God in building the Kingdom. The Kingdom realized is the whole world acknowledging the lordship of God our Creator and people directing their lives to be one with him.

In exile, this may look different than it has before. So, what's it gonna be...this life on the Island.

Do something transformational

2009-05-29T06:32:00.000-07:00

I took a survey and this is what it said...

2009-03-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

I occasionally enjoy taking various personality tests, especially when I need to break an over reflective cycle. These cycles get spinning and these tests seem to give a point of spinning off in an actual direction for a while. Today I completed a Spiritual Profile survey on explorefaith.org (a site that I wish that I had created, I like it that much). This test has brought a couple of things in me to the surface. I am caused to consider and appreciate the differences, the uniqueness of the way we all go about our Spiritual journey. This is, when I meet someone who has a style so different than mine, a difficult thing for me to embrace. For example, when I am feeling doubtful, distant and a bit insecure in my faith, the last person I want to talk to is someone who is a "lover" or a "maverick" (types listed in this profile). They may be the exact people I need to interact with but never the less, it is difficult thing for me to celebrate. Today, I am rethinking that attitude, and even I will admit that is a long time coming and could prove to be very beneficial.

The other benefit for me today in taking this was that I saw what may be a description of my journey and discovered a couple resources that I would like to look into more. I love it when I get a lead on how I may set out on learning the life that my Creator is leading me in.

This is what my profile said about me:

You are a Seeker

Seeker

Seekers are people who naturally connect with the Holy One through questioning. They have a healthy skepticism that makes it easy for them to explore different opinions, understandings, and experiences of faith. They do not feel the need to accept traditional faith patterns in order to come to a lively trust in God. They do not feel that faith needs to be categorized or institutionalized in order to be real. Inconsistencies and mystery are not daunting to them, but they sometimes find it hard to recognize God in ready-made answers to questions of faith. They seek to relate to the Holy One through exploration and journey. They tend to pray with hopefulness rather than certainty in God’s response. If they were to meet God face to face, they would want to ask God questions.

The woman who met Jesus by a well near her town exemplifies the qualities of a seeker. She was courageous in speaking with Jesus—a male who was outside her tradition—and she even boldly challenged Jesus when he questioned her about her faith and life. Though she was on a path of trying to find and live spiritual truth, she was humble enough to accept new truth when it was revealed to her.

If you are a seeker you may find spiritual meaning through asking questions and testing the normally accepted assumptions about God and faith. As a seeker looking for truth, the journey will be as important to you as the destination. You may be encouraged in your seeking by going to explorefaith.org’s Explore Faith section. Other material of interest could include explorefaith.org books such as Blowing the Lid off the God-box and Beyond Words: Fifteen Ways of Doing Prayer, and articles introducing new ways of perceiving, such as those on Ram Dass, Jewish Spirituality, A World of Prayers, and The Stuff of Dreams, about using dreams and the unconscious to connect with God.

Seekers may struggle more with traditional patterns of prayer and faith. Praying the Hours and reading daily Signpost devotions may be surprise tonics for your soul.

Surprises along the Mississippi River.

2009-03-16T06:20:00.000-07:00

I love surprises...

Yesterday we took a drive to Memphis to connect with Jamie and Gayle Pund, who have been in Memphis on a week long mission trip working with "NCC". So, we after worshiping God with the community of believers at Friendship Nazarene, and eating lunch at Pearl Oyster House, we decided to take a walk along first Beale St. and then the Mississippi. We grew up along the "ole Miss" and then on down the river in La Crosse WI our friendship with the Punds was formed. Another friendship, one with Jenn Macainaig was formed along the same river. Later, she would move to Madison, WI - where she still lives and sails and has her being on a different body of water. Back to Memphis...we were crossing the road when we heard a horn honk and there at the intersection of Life and Fun sat Jenn Macainag in her Honda, Pilot. A second look confirmed it. There we were, hundreds of miles away from our respective homes, brought together by the Maker of the Mississippi River. It was a great day spent among those I love, the Body of Christ. Worshiping our Creator together, enjoying friendship. I love surprises.

Ash Wednesday: the beginning of a historic journey

2009-02-25T12:18:00.000-08:00

Lord Jesus Christ, you loved us while we were yet sinners, and have called us to love others, to bring hope to a broken world. Help us each day to be your people and to live lives of uncommon faith and love. You are the Lord forevermore. Amen.

Be Thou My Vision

Ancient Irish hymn, possibly from the 8th Century

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my light
Be thou my wisdom and Thou my true word
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord
Thou my great Father, I , Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling and I with Thee one
Riches I heed not nor man's emptly praise
Thou mine inheritance now and always
Thou and thou only first in my heart
High King of heaven my treasure Thou are
High King of heaven my victory won
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heaven's Sun
Heart of my own heart whatever befall
Still be my vision O Ruler of all

Recently I have been reflecting (too much probably) on what I should be striving to become. The character, the inner growth is so intangible - it is not something I can work on with time oriented goals and specific outcomes. There are things I am mindful of, but I find myself needing goals and a plan for where I am going. Even if the plan changes along the way, I need a plan. So, here I am with many things up in the air - family, school, business, career....
It is good today to take time - in ashes. I love connecting with history - the lent journey is a historic one, that reaches down through the ages, connecting with the human story of relationship with our Creator. I know I am not the first to travel this road, won't be the last and am not alone along the way. Recognizing my need for connection with my God, my Creator, my Savior. Be my vision, O Ruler of all.

Detours...

2008-12-07T09:06:00.000-08:00

...are meant for going around the route that was originally intended. Detours are a way to get around an area that is not considered safe to travel. Detours are a second best way to go, right?

Today in honor of the catastrophe that took place at Pearl Harbor, a Christian Church I attended took a - and I quote - "detour from our missions moment" to read about war and the honor that it is for young men to learn to shoot a gun and unite against a "common enemy", to protect the USA.

I sat there in disbelief. Are we not citizens of the Kingdom of God? Was Jesus just not clear enough about what that Kingdom is about? As I listened to the message that followed I was glad to hear an acknowledgment that the ways of the Kingdom of God are not that of our culture many times. The message addressed issues of disbelief, faith and doubt. Are we so sure that we can preserve our way of life, comfort and freedom better than Jesus? Do we not believe that God will lead us, teach us and do what is best for us? Or are we just afraid of what God would allow to happen to us if we simply obeyed, followed Jesus in His way and lived by the ways of the Kingdom of God rather than of this world. I think we all realize that there are many who do and don't live through it.

A life of faith is not one that guarantees safety and freedom or comfort or popularity. It does not promise acceptance, it doesn't even promise food on the table. Regardless of what happens, a life of faith is about following Jesus (a homeless man, living below the poverty line, outcast by religious leaders, killed by his country for his teachings, claiming to be the Son of God - living and dying so that we could learn a better way) no matter what.

I am honestly baffled many times by the things that are embraced by the Body of Christ. I am looking to be part of a community of believers who are open to conform to the ways of the Kingdom of God, even if it means challenging those things that we have always thought to be o.k. - even if it means standing alone, against the masses and proclaiming the Good News.

Following Jesus, we are promised glory and the presence and peace of God. Often this means just staying on course, not taking detours that are presented to us as a better way.

Here are some things said by mentors of mine on the issue of peace.:

We have placed such idolatrous faith in our ability to protect ourselves that we call it more courageous to die killing than to die loving. - Shane Claiborn, The Irresistible Revolution, 286

It’s even more scandalous to think of killing someone who kills, for they, more than anyone in the world, need to hear that they are created for something better than that. - Shane Claiborn, Jesus for President, 205

So even as we see the horror of death, may we be reminded that in the end, love wins. Mercy triumphs. Life is more powerful than death. And even those who have committed great violence can have the image of God come to life again within them as they hear the whisper of love. May the whisper of love grow louder than the thunder of violence. May we love loudly. – Jesus for President, 205

Then Jesus said to him, "Put your sword back into its place; for those who live by the sword, die by the sword." Matt 26:52.

"Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth... Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy... Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God." Matt 5:5-9.

"But I say to you that hear, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you. If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same." Luke 6:27-32

What I'm researching on Wikipedia

2008-11-15T05:02:00.000-08:00

The term socialization is used by sociologists, social psychologists and educationalists to refer to the process of learning one’s culture and how to live within it. For the individual it provides the skills and habits necessary for acting and participating within their society. For the society, inducting all individual members into its moral norms, attitudes, values, motives, social roles, language and symbols is the ‘means by which social and cultural continuity are attained’ (Clausen 1968: 5).

I recently had a conversation about socialization that has effected me deeply. I am on it. I am always interested in stuff like this. How people live together, work together...how I can best live along side other. How I can love better and be more useful... I have not ever been in a place for longer that two weeks where I had not been socialized. For two weeks in a different culture, you take the instruction of those who live there, understanding or not you just mirror their responses to the environment. For two weeks, anyone can appreciate the differences of others, embrace the uniqueness of others. Two months - not the case.

Along with learning how this happens, I will be finding out how long it takes. I suspect many missionaries show up in a culture not prepared for what they are truly entering into. This, I now know can be not such a good thing. There are so many dynamics that can blindside. If I had it to do all over, I would quickly find a cultural mentor. My experience is not as dramatic as socialization in another country with a new language - but then again maybe you are granted more time, more benefit of the doubt, if you look different and are still learning the language.

hmmmm....
Secondary socialization refers to the process of learning what is appropriate behavior as a member of a smaller group within the larger society. It is usually associated with teenagers and adults, and involves smaller changes than those occurring in primary socialization. eg. entering a new profession, relocating to a new environment or society.

Developmental socialization is the process of learning behavior in a social institution or developing your social skills.

Resocialization refers to the process of discarding former behavior patterns and accepting new ones as part of a transition in one's life. This occurs throughout the human life cycle (Schaefer & Lamm, 1992: 113). Resocialization can be an intense experience, with the individual experiencing a sharp break with their past, and needing to learn and be exposed to radically different norms and values. An example might be the experience of a young man or woman leaving home to join the military.

to vote or not...

2008-10-12T05:12:00.000-07:00

While many of my friends know for certain how they will vote, I struggle with if I should vote or not. It is clear that we cannot know what the facts are. As a Christian, my true citizenship is not that of America. It is not my goal to see that Government legislates morality according to my beliefs. On the other hand voting can be an opportunity to promote change. But then, I have voted in the past and not liked feeling responsible for what I cannot control. I feel like I made a choice and now the blood is on my hands.

What I do know is that I have got to be active in my primary citizenship of the Kingdom of God. In that system, we don't vote once every 4 years and then just live with the choice we make. We get to vote every day with the way we live our lives. Faith. Peace. Hope. Love. Freedom. We fight for those. We cannot forget that Love wins in the end. This had been determined. No matter what happens, or doesn't happen, our mission is to remind those around us, spread the good news and spend our lives telling people of the hope, the freedom, the love of Jesus Christ. We don't do that by voting in November. It's o.k. to ask Caesar to be in line with our mission, we get to do that if we want to. Beyond that, I believe that God is asking us, the Church - the people He calls His children- to be a part of the restoration He has begun. To care for the poor, spread the Good news, to love, to hope, to serve.

Gene and I are reading Jesus for President by Shane Claiborne. We just picked up a copy yesterday. Maybe you want to read it with us?

How we need to be freed from the illusion that we’re doing anything kingdom by voting a certain way every couple years! How we need to wake up to the truth that we vote for or against the Kingdom every day of our life. We vote by how we spend our money and time. We vote by where we live, who we hang out with, the kind of car we drive and the kind of clothes we wear. In the Kingdom, we vote with our lives, not in a booth expressing our opinion about what Caesar should do. -Greg Boyd

here I am, now what?

2008-09-23T12:05:00.000-07:00

The Lord is merciful and compassionate,
slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.

This week as I read through some of the En Gedi lectionary passages, the theme of complaining to God emerged. I have complained to God about many things - much like the Israelites, I'm wondering why can't I just stay where I am, make friends, enjoy family. Why couldn't I at least move to somewhere near a large body of water? Now, I am not moving on from slavery as they were, but I do sometimes wonder why not just stay where I at least know my way around, it's familiar...?

I am glad that God is merciful and compassionate. I know, I am relying on His guidance. I am trusting that He is concerned with my journey and how I feel about it. That may not change the steps I am to take but I can look for Him to, as He did with the Israelites, provide what I need for the life He is leading me in. When I don't recognize His provision, when I don't know what to do next and when I'm crying for my own way, I'm glad He is slow to anger and filled with unfailing love.

I wish I had written this song.

2008-09-18T20:12:00.001-07:00

Since I did not write this song, I'm glad that Francesca Battistelli did. (Click on her name, if you would like to visit the site and listen to it. The lyrics resonated with me today.)

My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

(Chorus)
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
I’m losing control
Of my destiny
It feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

(Chorus)

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

(Chorus)

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me

(Francesca Battistelli / Ian Eskelin / Tony Wood) © 2008 Word Music, LLC (ASCAP) / Bridge Designer Music, Inc., Honest and Popular Songs (SESAC) (Adm. by Multisongs, Inc) / New Spring Publishing Inc., Row 9 Seat J Songs (ASCAP)

In the past 40 days...

2008-09-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

...we moved to Nashville Tn.
...we celebrated 18 years of marriage.
...Spencer turned 8.
...I turned 40.
...we went to the Smokey Mountains, and Dollywood.
...we got a new car, along with a car payment for the first time in over 8 years.
...I've begun the learning process of another public school routine.
...I began a new job at Vanderbilt's Childrens Hospital. I like the job so far, even though I have not been out of classroom orientation yet.
...we all got library cards (having fun isnt' hard,when you have a library card!).
...I've kept an orchid alive for over two weeks now! (blooms still in tact)
...I've been sun burnt 3 different times (not smart).
...I got a TN drivers' license and have been fingerprinted and back ground checked 3 different times.
...I started a new journal.
...I've fallen behind in my studies and blogging, I have done little to no reading. AND the new season of Heroes begins this week and I am not caught up on the last season!

Jibe Ho!

2008-08-05T15:53:00.001-07:00

2008-08-02T15:00:00.000-07:00

"I hate being the dumb girl", I said to my friend who is a physician. "You know, every work place has one at some time, someone who just doesn't get it....I'm that girl." My friend very kindly and quickly replied, "Oh, no Juli, that person never knows who she is. As long as you are aware, you are not the dumb girl!" So, I went back to work on Monday and just kept on. This was the story of my career 3 years ago. I have come a long way since then (and still have much to go.)

I don't know what my colleagues were really thinking back then but they were kind and helpful - most of the time! :-) Over the past several years, the people I work with have become some of my dearest friends. We have shared struggles with family crisis and illness, as well as work place ups and downs. We have great conversations, tackled many issues, solved world problems and exposed some as well. I have learned so much! My faith has been strengthened as I see God at work in the lives of these beautiful people. Shalom.

Apple Pie, A La Mode.

2008-08-02T14:54:00.001-07:00

My list of 40 things to do before I'm 40 included making an apple pie. After months of promising to make this pie, I finally did it! Even without the allspice, I have to say it went quite well. MMMMMM. Very rewarding.

Nothing can separate us...

2008-07-27T12:04:00.000-07:00

How awesome is it that no matter our circumstances, we are never apart from the love of our God, our Creator. As a child of God, I do not have to worry or be afraid, unless I want to. (Which, I admit sometimes I just do. It's easier sometimes, just worry and be afraid, I'll be confident and courageous when I get over myself.)

We are a little over 2 weeks away from moving to Nashville, TN. We will leaved the Midwest lifestyle for the first time ever and venture out into a new city, a new culture...a new adventure. Right now, I am interviewing for jobs and saying good bye to good friends, a city and neighborhood and a work place that I love. Monday I found a lump on my breast. My first thought was, "Great, another thing to think about." Now, I'll go for a diagnostic mammogram this week and just see what next. I wasn't really worried until I told a couple people and heard a couple horror stories. I was really only thinking of the inconvenience of the timing... There is also the things of selling a home - finances, inspections, appraisals... The kids begin school the week we move and the paperwork sitting here for me to complete. Spencer needs to get his cast off before we move or I will be sawing it off with a kitchen knife. :-) O.k. so, you can start to see that like many of you, I can go on and on about the things that I could choose to worry about. The cool thing - I truly am not worried and I am so thankful for the gift of faith and unending, unconditional love that my God has given me! When I say it all out loud, I realize why people are wondering why I am planning parties and going to ball games. I want to enjoy this process. I don't want to hurry around and miss the life that God is giving, even when there is much to do. Oh, I have my moments (I blame PMS). Maybe in the moment following this session, I will pop open a Blue Moon and get to work. For this moment, I am grateful.

Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? ...No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

It's All Good!

2008-07-07T04:07:00.000-07:00

‘Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.’
-Jesus (Matthew 11:28-30)

It's more simple than I make it to be sure. It is probably the very reason that causes me to have to try to understand, is why I don't completely grasp what Jesus is saying here. It seems to me lately that resting is harder work than it ought to be. The mind just grabs hold of all the things that I am trying to let go of, not "worry" about and hangs on tight. If I am able to let it go during the day - mostly be distracting myself - my mind just goes into overdrive throughout the night. Dreams...headaches...tingling in the hands and feet...(which could simply be hormones too, I suppose).

I dreamt two nights in a row about a woman who was a very good friend to me when I was a senior in high school. In the dream, I was walking and heard (not audibly) a voice, I turn and there is Jo, sitting in a barbers chair. She has a big smile on her face. I then immediately just go over and give her a big hug. That's it. No words exchanged. No feelings of anything but, hey, it's good to see you!

Our house is on the market, we have multiple showings throughout the week, we are in negotiations now with a potential buyer. It occurred to me that while we keep saying that we are not in any particular hurry, no matter when the house sells we will have a short period of time to secure a job and a place to live. School in Nashville begins mid-August. So, there are just a lot of unanswered questions. I love a good adventure but if I'm honest my favorite part of adventure is getting beyond it and looking back fondly, knowing I made it. (My friends who went White-water rafting with me can attest to that!)

So...I have a lot to learn from Jesus about "finding rest" this week.

"It's all good!" is becoming our mantra around here. Gene says it often. I am believing it, I just don't know the details of just how good it really is, that's all.

These will be my notes on the scripture passage as I travel through the week: (please share your insights too!)

In earlier verses, just prior to the quote above, Jesus voices his judgement on those who consider themselves intelligent, wise - on arrogant and self-satisfied people. He seems not ony to be speaking of those who are self-satisfied without him, but also those who felt themselves secure in their knowledge of God and Jesus himself (see the earlier versese, 11:20-24),

One commentary on this verse said this: "Jesus embraces the meek, the broken and the little ones, for they are most like him."

inspiring:

2008-07-05T12:43:00.001-07:00

At 41, she has done what most would have termed impossible since retiring (for the second time, no less) after the 2000 games: bear a child, get diagnosed with asthma, go through recent knee and shoulder surgeries, and arrive at the U.S. Olympic swimming trials posting faster times than in her mid-20s. Yet, when she touched a wall in the 100-meter freestyle Friday night, she squinted at digits that seemed downright impossible. Torres qualified for the Olympic team by edging out a 25-year-old Natalie Coughlin by five one hundredths of a second – 53.78 to 53.83 – in an event in which Coughlin holds the American record.

I may not be going to Bejing (this was something I thought maybe I would do) but Dara Torres is - and I'll be watching!

take care of your toes today

2008-07-04T11:04:00.001-07:00

2008-07-04T10:19:00.000-07:00

Come, thou Fount of every blessing,
tune my heart to sing thy grace;
streams of mercy, never ceasing,
call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
sung by flaming tongues above.
Praise the mount! I'm fixed upon it,
mount of thy redeeming love.

Here I raise mine Ebenezer;
hither by thy help I'm come;
and I hope, by thy good pleasure,
safely to arrive at home.
Jesus sought me when a stranger,
wandering from the fold of God;
he, to rescue me from danger,
interposed his precious blood.

O to grace how great a debtor
daily I'm constrained to be!
Let thy goodness, like a fetter,
bind my wandering heart to thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love;
here's my heart, O take and seal it,
seal it for thy courts above.

The List

2008-07-01T18:35:00.000-07:00

Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days

The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?

Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

From date: Saturday, March 1, 2007 (6 months to my 40th Birthday)
Resulting date: Saturday, November 27, 2010

Before 40 (a list that began>5 years ago, to be completed over the next 6 months)
1. Practice calligraphy. Develop my own font.
2. Raise creative funds and acquire a GPS.

3. Lose 40 pounds.
4. Go sailing. Take sailing lessons.
5. Have an adventure, do something scary. White water rafting.
6. Get highlights in my hair
7. Go to a wine tasting (7/16/08)
8. Volunteer in the Medical Tent at the Iron Man
9. Read 40 books just for fun–may overlap with other reading goals (9/40)

1. Change of Heart, Jodi Picoult 1/15/2007
2. My Sister’s Keeper, Jodi Picoult
3. Nineteen Minutes, Jodi Picoult
4. The Tenth Circle, Jodi Picoult
5. Purple Hibiscus (book club) 1/17/2008
6. Kite Runner
7. Thousand Splendid Suns
8. 90 Minutes in Heaven (book club)
9. The Sparrow
10. The Magician’s Nephew
11. Chet Gheko Mystery Series (5/10)
12. Children of God 13. Dawn Treader

14. The Silver Chair
15. Eat, Pray, Love
16. The Bookseller of Kabul
17. The Glass Castle
18. The Last Battle
19. Eat, Love, Pray
20. In A Moment 21. The Lion the Witch and The Wardrobe

22. The Horse and His Boy

23. Prince Caspian

24. Love That Dog

25. The Adventures of Tom Sawyer

10. Calculate my carbon footprint.

Your footprint is 17.277 tonnes The average for United States is 20.4 tonnes
The worldwide target to combat climate change is 2 tonnes
* The average footprint for people in United States is 20.4 tonnes.
* The average for the industrial nations is about 11 tonnes.
* The average worldwide carbon footprint is about 4 tonnes.
* To combat climate change the worldwide average needs to reduce to 2 tonnes.

The results of your carbon footprint calculation
Offset 17.277 tonnes

11. Get PALS certified.

12. Read the Chronicles of Narnia (8/8)

13. Start a book club.
14. Renew ACLS certification.

15. Learn how to camp as a family. Go camping. (2)

16. Attend a professional sporting event. (Bears, Cubs)
17. Buy myself fresh flowers.
18. Make at least 5 changes to my lifestyle to become more “green”

Using green bags, less plastic
Rechargeable batteries
Live plants in the house
Water plants outside with gray water, re use "gray water"
transition to non chemical, environmentally friendly cleaning products / bug spray
moving to an apartment, less than 1000 sq feet per person
minimal / shared yard

19. Buy someone else flowers – just because.
20. Write a poem.
21. Go kayaking
22. Create a workable calendar for the family. Make it portable.
23. Eliminate the need for storage of unuseful items.
24. Divert Daily: 20/20 (read and journal)
25. Withdraw Weekly: Spend time each week in prayer (1/143)
26. Maintain Monthly: Schedule one 6-8 hour time of solitude. (2)
27. Have updated journals for both Sam and Spencer.
28. Buy a new houseplant and keep it alive for the remainder of days (minimum 500)
29. Drive a Jaguar.
30. Ride my bike ...
31. Grow an herb garden / salsa garden.
32. Develop an exercise routine. (See windows: Every day play)
33. Mix the perfect pina colada.
34. Attend an Author’s book signing/reading.
35. Purge and organize digital photos (back up files).
36. Acquire good digital camera with video options (and audio).
37. Watch the sunrise from Memorial Union in Madison, WI (Sunset on 7/31)
38. Observe a Meteor Shower.
39. Paint on a canvas.
40. Bake an apple pie. (8/1/08)

61 More Things to do with the remaining time...November 2010

Edit / Revise List
Make list of 50 things to do before we are 50
Create new list for next 1001 days
Read 10 Life Coaching books.
Read 10 Spiritual Growth works.
Read 1 Non fiction / History / Biography each month.
Subscribe and remain current with podcasts: Inspirational, Theology/Apologetic, Ecclesiastical, Life Coaching, Sociological/Anthropological, Medical
Take a class in Natural Medicine
Get Certified as a Life Coach / Spiritual Director
Find my “word”
Choose theme song for life: Sam, Spencer, my own
Know enough to vote in the 2008 Presidential Election
See five professional stadiums with the boys. (3/5: Wrigley Field, 7/28: Brewers Stadium, Lambeau Field)
Save a dollar a day (0/1001)–end total must be $1001, does not literally have to be $1 per day
Take an international trip as a family. (Italy?)
Go to New York City
Ride 101 miles on a bike–any kind of bike, inside or outside (3/101)
Send a minimum of 1 birthday card each month.
Participate in a "competitive" race (walk,run,ride,swim).
Write an article for publication.
Create my own stationary.
Try 10 CDs of artists I have never listened to before and keep track of artists (1/10; See ::Things Heard::)
Host and create a photo scavenger hunt
Have both boys take MBTI.
Read Emotional Intelligence – kids.
Read A Writer’s Book of Days and do exercises
Read the Bible
Post to one of our blogs once a week (12/143)
Simplify, rename...update our family blog - cosolidate into one site.
Fill at least one Moleskine journal
Meditate on one life verse from the scriptures each month.
Draft a living will.
Reflect on why I chose each item on my list–in blog or journal
Complete book - writing prompts
Take a picture of myself everyday of the 40th year
Organize printed photos / Digitalize as possible
Design 5 Personal Spiritual Retreats for friends who are seeking. (1/5)
Back-up digital photos once a month (0/34)
Host a garage/yard sale
Create a home/family altar.
Lead a "busy persons retreat" with a group of friends (not at church).
Eliminate all but one junk drawer
Research volunteer opportunities/charities–invest time in something I believe in
Start a film discussion group.
Read through the excercises found in DaVinci's notebooks, complete 5 of the excercises.
Learn a foreign language.
Travel outside the country as a family
Take a class in natural medicine
Get certified as a Life Coach.
Give something up during Lent each year (2008, 2009, 2010)
Get 7-8 hours of sleep/night on average in a week.
Journals – our story, writing prompt
Write a book for ebook format. (Mind the Gap)
Save a dollar a day (120/1001)–end total must be $1001, does not literally have to be $1 per day
Plan a “date” with Gene once monthly.
Synchronize my address book on Mac with my cell phone/PDA/iPod
Create photo books for each boy.
Update boys journals’ and keep a minimum of monthly Journal entries
Learn Design Pro.
Watch 101 movies and keep track of the list (10/101 ::things seen::)
Review, Update and Keep Current with Life Time line.

E.R. discovers the flaw of post-modernisem

2008-03-03T12:37:00.001-08:00

this from the ONE Campaigne BLOG...

2007-05-10T16:30:00.000-07:00

Join Meg Ryan and Take Action for Mothers

Posted by Meg Ryan, Actress and CARE ambassador
10:30 AM May 10, 2007

Actress Meg Ryan is an ambassador for CARE, a founding member of the ONE Campaign dedicated to empowering women in the fight against global poverty.

Every minute of every day, one woman dies from pregnancy-related complications. Every minute. And almost all of these deaths take place in poor countries.

As a mother of two children, I am personally moved to help mothers worldwide. I believe, and I’m sure you do too, that it is unacceptable for mothers to die needlessly from problems during pregnancy and childbirth – problems that could be avoided with better health care.

There isn’t a simple solution. But there is hope. CARE’s maternal health programs in some 20 countries have shown that a comprehensive approach can turn the tables for mothers at risk – and you and I can help. This Mother’s Day, urge your legislators to support CARE’s Safe Motherhood Platform.

CARE’s Safe Motherhood Platform is a set of recommendations to increase U.S. funding for family planning and maternal health programs, and to use that funding more effectively. These changes could save the lives of hundreds of thousands of mothers and children worldwide.

Take a minute to contact your representatives today. Together, we can make a difference."

CARE::The Power of Mothers

the search for the perfect purse...

2006-06-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

Ladies, our troubles are over. We've all been there, love this one but I wanted a zipper close not a snap, too big, too small, not quite the right color, no pocket for my cell phone...and I am NOT paying that much for a purse. God forbid this is going on in front of the man!

Well, as I said, our troubles are over. I found a creative solution to all of this. For those of you who haven't had the time lately to be solving the world's problems, I have done the research for you. Get ready...brace yourselves....Why buy when you can borrow?

Yes, that's right. Designer hand bag rental is now just a click away.

Bag Borrow or Steal. You pay 9.95 monthly and then rental fees are as low as $5 weekly. And if you are wondering, they did think of everything. Insurance is available too. So we're covered when the crayon melts in the bottom of the bag or the dog chews a hole in it to get at the gum.

What's stopping us! Sign up today! Why buy a purse for $7 at ShopKo? Those deals only last a year or two, and you have to go through all the trouble to find the perfect purse all over again! The madness is over!

I was asked a question...how would you answer it...?

2006-05-30T13:38:00.000-07:00

"Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me." John 15:4

Is abiding active or passive? What activities are inherent in the life of a person who is abiding in an excellent way?

For years now Andrew Murray has been one of my mentors on this topic of abiding. In one of the many things he says about abiding he says, "It is when the soul becomes utterly passive, looking and resting on what Christ is to do, that it's energies are stirred to their highest activitity, and that the we work more effectually because we know that He works in us."

Just as Christ drew us to him..."Come to me"...He keeps us with "Abide in me". Living and dwelling are active, in that they bring life and growth, depth .... Abiding is passive in that we can do nothing strategically to "make it happen". It is not our work to do. I believe it is for us to position ourselves, to create space, for Christ to speak and for us to hear. It is my ambition to know His voice, to stay, watch, listen and obey. Life itself will show me His glory if I am paying attention. The acts of obedience - to love, to study, to pray, to fellowship, to serve seem then to be natural responses to Jesus, not strivings of my own. These activities follow Jesus' activitiy rather than precede them. So, am I saying first passive then active? Or both passive and active? Actively passive.

Now, while I have meditated on this, studied it, prayed through it, wrestled with it for years now - I still have difficulty grasping the reality. (The "what it looks like" in our present reality.) The moments that I do get are fleeting. Where I get hung up is in the power of His presence is evidenced. It seems that there should be more evidence. There should be some obvious diffence between one who abides in Christ and one who does not.

While these are things we cannot see...dependency on Christ, reliance on the Scripture, prayer, and desire to always grow seem to be areas that are places we can begin examining our lives.

I do know that the true work in me, happens outside of my own strivings. This causes me to wonder if I am not so actively pursuing "abiding", I would gain some comprehension of these matters. Or - it will always be a matter of hindsight and I will never know what fruit is growing until it's time for the next crop.

My aim these days, "to allow Christ's Word to impact my life at it's deepest level". - whatever that looks like...

Thinking Theologically About Church: When Little is Big

2006-05-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth...No one has ever seen God, but God the One and Only,who is at the Father's side, has made him known. (John 1:14,18)

According to John 1:14 it is in Jesus Christ that we see the epitome of God’s way of dwelling with us. His clearest way of dwelling with us is through his Son, who exegetes the Father. If we want to find God, to see God, to know God, we need look no further than Jesus himself.

...surprisingly, perhaps astoundingly, the apostle who penned John 1:18 also wrote 1 John 4:12. In 1 John 4:12 John tells us that God is revealed in another place as well. In this verse he is answering the question, “Where can God be seen?” We would expect John’s answer to go something like this: “God the Father reveals himself and his love by means of his Son, Jesus Christ. So if you want to see God, look toward Jesus.” But instead, John states, “No one has ever seen God, but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.” John teaches here that God the Father reveals himself in the loving community of those who follow Jesus. The churches to which he was writing were scattered and fledgling. Yet that is where God chooses to dwell.

Yes, we believe and know that God revealed himself through our Lord Jesus. But the second aspect of that parallel, that God reveals himself within the local church, would be difficult for us to affirm if we did not have 1 John 4:12, wouldn’t it?

Nevertheless if we do not learn to affirm this parallel truth we miss an opportunity to be encouraged. Our church (work) is vitally important to God and his mission because he has chosen to dwell in our churches. And this is true regardless of their size. So be encouraged that little is big, that even small churches can be significant because God dwells within them and wants to reveal himself there. Continue to dream and work toward the day when the Church will be larger than it is. But in the meantime, remember that small can be significant.

To read the full article and many others like it go to Church Planting and Theology (Dale W. Little Ph.D

Taking Time for Personal Growth

2006-05-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

One of the paradoxes of motherhood is that what we need as mothers is often the first thing we give up in order to be mothers. This is certainly true of making time for our own spiritual and personal growth. We often forego it in order to focus more fully on our children. It’s a dilemma: see to your own needs, or see to theirs.

When my youngest child was in preschool, I decided to take tap dancing lessons. Doing so was the first time since the birth of my children that I acknowledged I didn’t cease to exist the moment they were born—and admitted I could continue to have a life outside my role as “mom.” It’s a lesson my mom modeled for me, but until I was a mother myself, I didn’t understand it.

A theater major in college, my mom continued to be active in community theater, doing one play a year, so as not to lose touch with her roots. (I have fond memories of seeing her as the Blue Fairy in Pinocchio!)Recently, she shared with me why she did it. Here’s what she said:

"I did it to prove that there was still a 'me' inside of 'mother.' I always made sure the homework was in process, that everyone's needs were met, then I set out to fill my own need, that of expressing myself as a person. It released the artistic angst within me, and since I felt fulfilled and alive and vibrant, I am sure I was a much better mother. I felt like I was a person in my own right."

A search for the “me” in mother. It’s a lesson we can learn from. If we’re not looking for the “me” in mother, we end up simply seeing the “other” in mother.

We don’t have to give ourselves over completely to our children. It is possible to continue to exist separately from them, even as we are existing for them.

You still have things to learn. Things to experience. Things to do. And it’s important that your children know this. Self-growth is the way we show our children that life doesn’t stop just because we are adults--that the process of becoming who God intends us to be is lifelong.

The lesson is best shared by modeling. It may be as simple as letting your children see you reading a book. Or studying your Bible. Or looking up something in the dictionary. Or digging in your garden. Or knitting your first scarf. Or beading a bracelet. Or identifying a bird in your backyard. Or decorating a cake. Or making a soufflé. Or organizing a school party. What they see is not important. That they see it is.

Though modeling growth for your children is important for them, it’s also important for you. Your own growth is like a well of cool, refreshing water. When you are filled with energy, enthusiasm, and excitement, you can let your kids and spouse drink from your well without worrying if there will be enough water for everyone. You know there will be. And though you might have to fight for the time to see to your own growth, knowing your well is full makes the fight worth it, because when we see to our own spiritual and personal growth, we can, by extension, see to the growth of our children.

Article written by Mary Byers. Mary is a professional speaker and author of the newest Hearts at Home book, The Mother Load: How to Meet Your Own Needs While Caring for Your Family, which will be released soon. She will be speaking at the 2005 Hearts at Home conferences, where she will encourage moms to take care of themselves so that they are more able to care for their families. She lives with her husband and two youngest children in central Illinois.

"Copyright Hearts at Home 2006, used with permission. For more information about Hearts at Home: 1-309-888-MOMS or www.hearts-at-home.org."

just a taste of the Pastor's/Wives retreat in Door County...

2006-04-23T15:17:00.000-07:00

2006-04-23T14:50:00.000-07:00

When last have you taken time to dream? When last have you consciously allowed your thoughts to go places you won't normally venture? What if, today, you allowed yourself to go into every nook and cranny of your ideal self, your ideal life, your ideal world? What would that even look like? What would it feel like?

Today, let's move into those dreams that come into your consciousness and stir up your desire for a better self and a better world. Click here and... DREAM BIG!

It might be fun to take time to comment once working through some of this.

May your Dreams take you to the places of your truest self. May your Dreams give you insight into who you really are and what you can accomplish. May your Dreams remind you that you are powerful, necessary and unique. Remember, only you can bring the Beauty of your Authentic Life to this world. May you know Courage, Focus and Determination as you follow your Dreams.

cartoon of the week...

2006-04-23T14:26:00.000-07:00

2006-04-23T14:11:00.000-07:00

Pastors and their spouses face as much stress as any of the highest executives in America. Now, more than ever, those in ministry must find times of refreshment and renewal. Many may just need a short rest, while others may only need a time of encouragement and fellowship. Wherever you stand, we feel that everyone can benefit from this specially designed three-day two-night retreat.
Since much of the cost is being underwritten by Focus on the Family, the total cost for early registration per couple for two nights lodging, four meals and all conference materials is only $200. (Cost increases to $300 per couple within eight weeks of the retreat.)

Rev. H.B. London Jr., from Focus on the Family, and other Christian speakers and entertainers will be there as well. Between words of encouragement and peace, laughter and quality time alone, this is sure to be the rest you've been looking for. For more info. go to www.parsonage.org..

Up in Smoke by Tillie Marchaman

2006-04-20T19:17:00.000-07:00

"Most senseless of all is the incredibly fast pace of living that robs everybody of everything but their unwanted fatigue." When I first read this sad statement describing the American lifestyle, it caused me to stop and take a good look at my life and what I was doing with my time. As a result, I made the commitment to simplify my life in any way I could, take a good look at my priorities, and to determine what was really important to me and to God.

Consequently, the daily-grind type of stress that Chuck Swindoll calls "the tyranny of the urgent," the kind that comes with overcommitment and living the hurried lifestyle, has eased considerably.

But there are other kinds of stress that come from living in a world where Jesus promised us that we would have suffering. He said, "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world" (John 16:33b).

Because we live in an imperfect world, this kind of stress can "hit us from the blind side". We may feel shocked, hurt, or sad. We may even find ourselves questioning God.

Oswald Chambers said, "The things we try to avoid and fight against – Tribulation...Suffering...Persecution...are the very things that produce abundant Joy!"

to read complete article by Tillie Marchaman..go to ...Just Between Us

The Gospel according to Jelly Beans...

2006-04-08T20:17:00.000-07:00

by S.A. Cooke If the number of jelly beans produced each Easter were lined up end-to-end, they would circle the earth almost three times. According to the National Confectioners’ Association, Easter is the second most popular candy eating occasion. Fifteen billion jellybeans, 2 million marshmallow chicks, and 60 million chocolate Easter bunnies are produced for this holiday. What do Easter eggs and jelly beans have to do with the holiest celebration of the year? To people who don't know Jesus, they are goodies left by the Easter Bunny for children to find. For Christians, they can be not only a sweet treat, but also an effective tool for celebrating and presenting the message of salvation. to read more, go to Christian Women Today.

What went wrong?

2006-04-02T16:54:00.000-07:00

Have you followed the news story ... minister's wife shooting her husband? I first heard about it at work - lunch room commentary. I fortunately was not asked for my thoughts on this story, just took some interesting glances. Gene read this piece on Yahoo News and asked me if he was next. I finally sat down this afternoon to read the story and view the pics of the family. I still don't know which direction to head with thoughts, emotions. I have run through being judgemental, speculative, defensive, sad, mad, curious... the only thing that I know isn't right would be to make fun of this tragedy.

I read this article, Depression Hits Some Preachers' Wives and thought about how sad the truth is at times. I glanced at some of the commentary from readers and saw headings like "Where was Jesus"... "Why didn't Jesus help her?" ...and became even more conflicted.

It seems that the people in the church respected this family, they are planting flowers in memory of their pastor so he must have been a good guy. -Why did she rent a condo on the beach? -This is a church that is facing trouble. How will they represent Jesus to their small community. How will God show His glory? Will she find peace in jail? What of the kids?

One thing I know to do is pray. It also causes me to think that us being committed to one another, bearing burdens, celebrating victories, dreaming, working, praying...together, is a very good thing. MaryAnn commented to me today that somewhere in our name it should also be said that "we live dangerous lives" - how true that is - in many ways.

Any thoughts?

Excellence in Ministry...

2006-03-26T19:28:00.000-08:00

...is the theme for this year's retreat for Pastors and Wives. All GLBC ministry staff and other lay ministry leaders and spouses are invited. This should be a great time of fellowship, interaction, teaching, worship and celebration at the Wagon Trail Resort in Door County, WI. (For more information access the brochure on the GLBC web site.)

We can hang out and be dangerous together! April 17-19, it's not too late to plan to go.

Experiencing God at the movies...

2006-03-25T07:03:00.000-08:00

Have you seen any good movies lately?

Recently, Gene and I rented The movie has rocked my world. This week I have been using the CRASH web site as a devotional guide. It's been fun and like I said, it's rocked my world a bit.

Our next gathering...

2006-03-18T19:05:00.000-08:00

... we will be exploring at Devil's Lake State Park in Baraboo. We are looking at the May 11-12. Overnight housing is still needed to make that happen. If we are not able to find overnight accomodations that are feasible, we are checking our calendars for Saturday May 12.

Comment here once you have checked your calendar and know if this date is going to work...and we'll go from there...

This may be setting our hopes high... Sue, out of her expertise in geology, may be showing us the potholes found at Devil's Lake. (If you want to get really excited about this day, visit the Devil's Lake web site - many of you have been there, it looks like a fascinating place!)

Dangerous Women...

2006-03-18T18:17:00.000-08:00

This weekend we gathered...to learn, to dream, the share our stories. We began the day by sharing a little of our spirtual journey. We saw bits of a bigger picture coming together as we listened. We acknowledged God as the Master Artist, who unveils a bigger picture piece by individual piece.

We discussed our adventure together as women who are choosing to be intentional about being connected for the good of the Kingdom. We did a bit of brainstorming about what it could look like. Our husbands follow somewhat of a format based on the acronym: LEAD: Learn-Encourage-Achieve-Dream. We agreed that was something we could commit to as well.

After a time of dreaming we moved to the dining table where we shared a wonderful meal - all "girl-food". (chicken salad, Panera bread, and salad with strawberries and mandarine oranges...mmmm) This was thanks to Diane Doty who also owns the lake house we met at. Thanks Diane! Thanks Linda for introducing us to Diane.

One way we are going to try to stay connected between gatherings is here- in BLOG WORLD. This is only for the truly dangerous! It may take a bit of time to get it working as well as it can but we're going to give it a try. If anyone has difficulty with it, email Juli. This will be fun! We can share prayer requests, answers to prayer, resources, news, lessons learned, funny stories...whatever. So, dangerous women - get blogging!

Around the table we read an excerpt from the book by Lynne Hybels, Nice Girls Don't Change the World. It was then we thought...that's what we want...to be dangerous women. Together. We prayed for one another and exchanged prayer requests for the time in between our gatherings.

"A dangerous woman delves deeply into the truth of who she is, grounds herself daily in the healing and empowering love of God, and radically engages with the needs of the world. ... Women mentoring one another aand sharpening skills. Women volunteering time. ... Thinking creatively. Taking risks. Following their God-given dreams. Dangerous women. World-changing women. All of us. Together."

May we be dangerous women.

May we be women who acknowledgy our power to change, and grow, and be radically alive for God.

May we be healers of wounds and righters of wrongs.

May we weep with those who weep and speak for those who cannot speak for themselves.

May we cherish children, embrace the elderly, and empower the poor.

May we pray deeply and teach wisely.

May we be strong and gentle leaders.

May we sing songs of joy and talk down fear.

May we never hesitate to let passion push us, conviction compel us, and righteous anger energize us.

May we strike fear into all that is unjust and evil in the world.

May we dismantle abusive systems and silence lies with truth.

May we shine like stars in a darkened generation.

May we overflow with goodness in the name of God and by the power of Jesus. And in that name, and by that power, may we change the world.

Dear God, Please make us dangerous women.

Amen.

"A dangerous woman delves deeply into the truth of who she is, grounds herself daily in the healing and empowering love of God, and radically engages with the needs of the world. ... Women mentoring one another aand sharpening skills. Women volunteering time. ... Thinking creatively. Taking risks. Following their God-given dreams.
Dangerous women. World-changing women. All of us. Together." (Lynne Hybels)

the sisterhood gathers...

2006-03-02T21:33:00.000-08:00

Sat. March 18 :: 10a.m-3p.m.
laughing...eating...praying....sharing...encouraging...discussing...

just the beginning....

2006-02-24T13:13:00.000-08:00

Dreaming big....anyone could post here - stories....pictures... We could all contribute - lessons learned, great books read, conferences, news...
Anyone interested will be made a member and could post. I've got it started, but it's only the beginning...just to give you an idea of the potential.